One of the first things I’ve learned on this trip so far is that being away makes you intensely aware of yourself and every little thing that you do. I guess when you’re in your element, you don’t take notice of anything as much because it’s all natural and you don’t have to think about it. When everything’s different, you think about everything.
I don’t like to consider myself particularly shy (though I have my moments) and I certainly don’t like to think of myself as being a fearful person but boy have I been here. Simple things like buying a ticket for a museum or ordering food have taken on a new level of challenge. Though I suppose that was the point of going wasn’t it. I’m so uncomfortable here, that’s the thing really. I didn’t even think I was that comfortable in Vancouver when I was there (suburban girl that I really am) but I didn’t have to think about things half so much there. It’s bugging the hell out of me, this state of ill at ease and I wonder if I’ll ever feel comfortable. Realistically, I’m not going to be staying in any one place long enough to shake this feeling. How annoying is that?
And then I remember that this was the point. In a sense, I want to be uncomfortable, to get outside that box that has no more room left in it to grow and push my boundaries a little. Undoubtedly, there will be a lot of self-reflecting. It is amazing just how much you think when you’re spending every day alone in strange cities.
But enough of that. I stayed in Zurich today as planned and visited the Landesmuseum and the Kunsthaus (art gallery). The Landesmuseum is the Swiss National museum and has museums in several cities but the headquarters are in Zurich so I figured, that’s the one I should visit. It has a nice collection of altarpieces (a particular kind of piece of art), a nice section on the middle ages and knights and my personal favorite, a collection of old clothing. I love looking at clothes from different eras and it usually makes me want to try stuff on. I think it would be cool to live in a different century just to wear the clothes. Of course, there would be other difficulties to that.
After the Landesmuseum I went to lunch and then to the Kunsthaus. I splurged and bought a ticket to both the permanent and temporary exhibitions because there was a Monet in the temporary exhibition. So I started with the permanent exhibition which has paintings and sculptures from most eras.
I won’t get into everything I saw because that would be silly but I’d like to try and describe the moment I had, the moment which is the entire reason why I love art galleries and a huge reason why I’m on this trip at all. About halfway through the gallery I came upon the Impressionism room, and there it was: a painting called “Parliament” by Monet. It is a piece that I have often had on my wall and one I have loved for about as long as I’ve loved art at all and I just stared, first marveling at the fact that I was right there in front of it, then admiring the liveliness of the brushstrokes and then just drinking it in. I got teary eyed at one point because seeing pieces that I’ve loved in books is such an emotional experience for me. There really isn’t anything like it. I kept coming back to that piece, looking at it over and over. There were several other paintings there that touched me, other paintings that I have admired but none moved me like that one did.
After the main gallery I went to the “Festival of Colour” exhibit which was a wonderfully eclectic mix of pieces from all sorts of movements. It was almost blinding though, the mix of bright colours, your eye never knew where to focus. It was too crowded to stop long at each piece but I think the strength of the show is more in the overall presentation rather than individual pieces. After that, I was too drained to go to another museum as initially planned (I should really try to remember how much art gallery touring takes out of me) so I took the tram back here.
So ends day 6 of Europeanness.